Xavier Alexander

The middle names of both my sons, the name I chose to use for social media so as to not be found or bothered by anyone I didn’t want to talk to. Such as a majority of family, previous friends and lovers that can not let the past me die in peace.

Letting go

At times I look to the stars And I remember you All the moments filled with joy All the things we loved to do … The ache isn’t so profound now Though it never quite goes away A dull pain I’ve learned to live with That I barely notice from day to day … In … More Letting go

The Walk

As I walk this lonely road hurting and weary, but not defeated to take my place near the golden thrown at the feet where my Father is seated

Phantoms

years have gone by still your scent lingers Even now I feel you in the space between my fingers … your voice is the hint of a whisper softer than the gentlest breeze your touch is that of a phantom that brings me to my knees … the memories that I keep locked away, inside … More Phantoms

Differences

So much changes in day, a week, a month or a year. Over the last three years my life has changed drastically. I’ve gone through physical, emotional, spiritual and mental changes. I’ve gone through two battles with NSCLC, still fighting the second. I’ve taken on intense therapy sessions for my DID. I’ve delved deeply into … More Differences